Im going out of town for the week, taking three girls up to another town in Alaska for a summer camp.
Its been a rough week here – or rather – a really rough yesterday, when some news that shook our world, totally shattered the lives of our friends. This post I wrote, the person who preached it, the father of four young kids, married…and madly in love with his wife – whos dad had just lost his wife a few months ago – died tragically yesterday morning.
Its just beyond words – and while some people are finding comfort that God knows this happened – it just seems so tragic. We spent the day with them yesterday, and there just arent words to express how bad I feel for them. There are no words, sometimes. And this is one of those times. The times when your heart bleeds pain for them, and their tragic, seemingly senseless loss.
Its hard to return to life with the same knowledge as the day before yesterday – when something like this has happened. Life has taken on a new meaning, but what? And why? And really? What matters?
Its sent waves of confusion, sadness, and heartache through our lives, and I can NOT imagine the kind of thoughts and questions they are having, not to mention the sadness that is so tangible, that stopping tears didn’t even enter my mind.
Watching them cry, feeling their pain, seeing their sadness – it all seems so senseless.
Please keep them in your prayers. They need all they can get right now, because while they know their dad/husband/son/uncle/brother – is in heaven at this very moment, it doesn’t help those who are left here on earth trying to make sense of this. The spring in their steps are gone, the smile on their faces is forced, and the happiness in their voice is replaced by that silent crackle that they are going to be ok – but it hurts. So much. And you just wish you could do something, even though there is nothing to be said, or done. You hurt FOR them, you cry FOR them, and you plead FOR them…because you just don’t know what else to do.
I will be back next Sunday. Until then…
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.